I look really good in dramatic lipstick colors- like, really good- but I’m too shy to wear them out in public
the problem is that there really isn’t an amount of makeup I could wear that would both improve my appearance and not look like I was wearing makeup
and ideally I would like to work past being afraid to wear visible makeup in public but I’m really not there yet
(funnily enough, I have almost no problem wearing drag in public, that’s fine, apparently)
transformation into a makeup blog: complete
this didn’t go as well as other times I’ve done it and I think it’s because my sponge was damp when I was applying the bronzer
anyway this is what I’m showing people how to do for my next Public Speaking assignment
this is photographing really poorly but I’m considering living life as a full-time faux king
eyeshadow game strong y/n (you can’t really tell in this photo)
my new lip gloss looks great on this lipstick but it’s too dramatic for daily wear sigh
I don’t know if I’ve achieved ‘handsome makeup’ yet but I like what I’ve accomplished sooo
practicing my eyes and lips for Kill My Boyfriend, my makeup skills are still a work in progress
welp, contouring and highlighting was a bust because I still don’t have the right shit, but at least my second attempt at eyeshadow wasn’t bad
i had a dream last night. a cisgender heterosexual male said he preferred girls with ‘the natural look’ and he did not think that ‘the natural look’ was the same as not wearing makeup. wow.what a crazy dream :)
It’s weird to see the queer coming off of me in layers as I undress and wash myself for bed.
It takes so little time, so little effort, before I’m just another cisboy, vaguely butch.
I’m not butch, but I’m not femme. I’m not trans*, I’m not genderqueer. I’m just very, very queer, and that’s not often all that visible. To have finally made that queerness, that freeness, that wildness visible- and then to shuck it off like a dried-up old skin, well…
It’s a little sobering.
"ARE YOU WEARING EYELINER?!?" they scream at the top of their lungs in public.
"… yes," I reply.
"Oh. Well, it looks nice," they say, this time at a normal volume.
I have this conversation at least once every time I put on eyeliner. Protip: Skip the first step and just tell me my eyeliner looks nice in your indoor voice.